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1楼主 这该死的MJ2007/8/14 14:28:00
实在分不清这是腐还是外传，总之，腐得相当好！！此外，这可是国家推荐读物，福特基金资助的成果，千万表河蟹我们哦！！
一、哀莫大于心死
古语说“哀莫大于心死”。我今年46岁了，一直没有结婚，这么多年在圈子里，也交朋友，但只是朋友的交情，愿意玩玩的就玩玩，我不会谈什么爱情一类的。我在爱情方面，都让我当年的那个爱人带走了。
那时，我是26岁，在一个中学教高中语文。我有个学生，他各方面多么好就不用说了。我们两个那时候真到了炉火纯青的真诚相爱程度了。这些都不用说了，我说这些，心里难受，往下的事情就没法讲了。他高三毕业，我还带他去了北戴河，两个人过了一星期“二人世界”的日子。当时，两个人都为势必不能天天再见面很伤感。可是，老天爷却有意要他的命，有意非让我和他生死别离。我们从北戴河回来不到半个月，他到海河里去游泳，一头扎下去就没再上来。我听到了这个消息，当时真到了精神错乱的程度。我认为他的水性很好，根本不相信他是意外被淹死的，一门心思认为他是因为要和我离开有意去死的。我后来看到了他的尸体，亲眼见到是水里的铁丝网挂住了他的脖子，心理上才有点不那么死钻牛角尖了。当时，我听到了这个消息，心都碎了。我疯了一样跑到他家里，完全精神失控了，一进门，当着他家许多人，我就给他父母跪下了，我就求他们，让我为他料理丧葬，让我保存他的骨灰。所有的人都奇怪，一个老师再喜爱自己的学生，也不至于这样啊？他的一个表哥看出点真情，就把我又劝又拉的强拉到了他家在楼下空地搭建的一间小平房。他追问我原因，我就把真实情况都告诉他了，我求他帮我实现我的这个心愿。我当时还发誓说为了他一辈子不结婚等等的，反正，海誓山盟的做出了许多承诺，什么要赡养他的父母一类的。我至今感谢他这个表哥，他说他理解我的心情，但劝我一定要冷静。他说老人遭受了这个不幸，如果他们知道我和他们的儿子是这种关系，知道儿子是同性恋，是不是更残酷的打击？他劝我，人已经死了，一切就都结束了，他会帮助给我留下一份纪念。就这样，他对老人说，老师这些年一手培养了这个孩子，对这个孩子能考进名牌大学很有把握，这个孩子突然死了，对老师也是一个残酷打击。他就这样为我遮掩过去了。这个表哥单独带我去医院的停尸房去看他。他已经冻得挺挺的，我当时都哭得昏了过去，我因为忘情的口勿他．嘴唇舌头被冻得粘掉了皮，鲜血淋漓的。这样，我为他买了当时最好的内库，衬衣，当时最时兴的银灰色纯毛哔叽的“和平装”，棕红色的三接头皮鞋。我听了他表哥的劝说，一直到他火化了一个多星期，他表哥约我愉偷去看他，允许我抓一把他的骨灰，我当时当着他表哥的面，吃了一大口，全咽下去了。当时，连他表哥都哭了，说是“这么有人爱他，他到人世一趟赶也值了”。我把剩下的骨灰一直装在我的枕头里，一直装到了现在。
参考：
Book casts light on hidden world of male sex workers
Wed, 2007-04-18 09:09
An Inquiry into Commercial Sex in the Community of Men Who Have Sex with Men in China (中国男男性交易状态调查) Tong Ge (童戈), Beijing Gender Health Education Institute (北京纪安德咨询中心) March, 2007
Sociologists and public health workers have long been aware of the commercial sex trade serving men who have sex with men, but there has previously been no serious and comprehensive research on “money boys” (金钱男孩) as male sex workers are known in China: who they are, what they do and how they become involved in the trade.
The gap has now been filled by this 500-page book, researched and published by the Beijing Gender Health Education Institute with funding support from the Ford Foundation. The book discusses the historical, social, economic and cultural roots of the profession and its impact in China, exploring a community that experiences “discrimination by those discriminated against”—for, as the book makes clear, even in the gay community “money boys” are looked down upon and often suffer ill treatment and abuse.
This is the second weighty volume by Tong Ge (童戈), who in 2005 wrote a milestone book on China’s gay scene entitled Men Who Have Sex with Men in China: Surveying Sex and Self-identity.
Unlike researchers who treat interviewees as “subjects”, Tong Ge takes a more personal approach, talking to sex workers as friends and equals and allowing them to tell their own stories. In each section, following his own observation and analysis, the author quotes one or more first-person stories that give his research a vivid and convincing touch. In this way, Tong carefully guides the readers through a hidden world filled with love, pain, hatred, joy and despair.
Through excerpts from 500 interviews, Tong investigates the patterns of male commercial sex, speaking to pimps, sex workers and their customers and describing different relationships between the three. He reveals that sex workers come from astonishingly diverse backgrounds: some have graduated from higher education, while others are still minors (the youngest interviewed is 14).
What makes the book even more remarkable is its in-depth treatment of the moral and legal contexts of male commercial sex and discussion of possible support mechanisms for male sex workers.
For public health workers, the book can serve as background material to understand this community’s role in the transmission and prevention of AIDS, helping them design more effective prevention programmes. For the curious general reader it is a good starting point for understanding commercial sex and the gay community, although some paragraphs reveal explicit details that challenge conventional morality. A shorter and abridged version would be useful for younger and less sophisticated Chinese readers.
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